I want to know why are there always bumps in my road? I wish sometimes when I am climbing this mountain that is life, and I choose to make changes, that my road would be smooth, just for a bit, until I can get my bearings.
But unfortunately, God has a different plan for me. So, Tues. Nate and I had a pretty serious discussion....and things are getting good, but they are not back to the way that they were when I was in Idaho. I guess that some of it is on me, but when he asked me to be honest, I was! and I am sad to say that I hurt him....I am trying to make up for it but it is really hard when I can feel that he is pulling away. I guess that we will see how things work out when I move there. I still feel good about that decision, much to the sadness of my friends here in Texas. I got a blessing on Wend, after pouring my heart out to my parents, who always have good advise, and to the Lord, who always blesses me even though I don't always deserve it.
I thought that I had figured out how to heal the rift that I caused, but I was told today that Nate is still reserved. I am trying to figure out what to do to help us, but I am coming up short. I really am just writing this to vent a little, so there are no comments needed, and I know that the Lord is in charge, so what ever comes of this little rift, is what is best for everyone. I hope that things get better, and I know that Nate still loves me, and right now, that is all I need.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
The Only thing Constant is CHANGE!
My life is about to change AGAIN! This time t is for the best, and I am very excited!!! After crying my eyes out about leaving Idaho and Nate, and my family, and much fasting and prayer... I decided to move to Idaho?!?!?!???!!!! I am going to go back to school, and keep my teaching certificate current, and to see what I have to do to get certified in Elementary Ed. So, this week amongst packing, talking to Nate, making travel plans, getting rid of almost EVERYTHING, working two jobs, saying good-bye to good friends, and trying to keep my sanity, I get to test kids all week, and register for classes.... (what was I thinking?)
On the plus side, my mom is brilliant, and told me to take a picture of the things that I want to keep the memory of, but don't want to keep the actual item...and today (bonus of all bonuses... I got to watch 2 count them 1, 2, kids PUKE in font of me!!!! DOUBLE YUCK!!!!) So the last day of work here for me is the 16th, and I leave Texas on the 17th after my exit inspection. So, if i don't write or read in a while, you will know why. If you must know, I have a place to live, and a really good reason to move to Idaho. (Nate being the big reason, but going back to school is the logical reason.) BTW, he and I are 98% positive that things will work out, but we want time to date and get to know each other. Happy reading, Marry Christmas, and I will try to write later.
On the plus side, my mom is brilliant, and told me to take a picture of the things that I want to keep the memory of, but don't want to keep the actual item...and today (bonus of all bonuses... I got to watch 2 count them 1, 2, kids PUKE in font of me!!!! DOUBLE YUCK!!!!) So the last day of work here for me is the 16th, and I leave Texas on the 17th after my exit inspection. So, if i don't write or read in a while, you will know why. If you must know, I have a place to live, and a really good reason to move to Idaho. (Nate being the big reason, but going back to school is the logical reason.) BTW, he and I are 98% positive that things will work out, but we want time to date and get to know each other. Happy reading, Marry Christmas, and I will try to write later.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Do's and To Do's
AGAIN I can not tell you all how much I enjoy seeing my friends Steph and Sean's Blogg, they always have GREAT FUN things... this is from Steph. so now for you to do: copy and paste this to your blog and bold the ones that you HAVE done.
1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty, does being close count?? they won't let you climb it any more...
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice How about Steam Boat Springs Co?
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
Now it's your turn...have fun. be honest, and I am pretty sure that I have read the Bible, but not from cover to cover, and that is what I think they mean by that one. I wait to see your responses.
1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty, does being close count?? they won't let you climb it any more...
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice How about Steam Boat Springs Co?
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
Now it's your turn...have fun. be honest, and I am pretty sure that I have read the Bible, but not from cover to cover, and that is what I think they mean by that one. I wait to see your responses.
Idaho
So, I made it. My friends think that I am brave, I think I am slightly crazy, my mom thinks I shouldn't have come, and that I need to take things slow.
I made it to Idaho!! I am here with Nate, and I haven't been raped, he is not weird, or even creepy. I am still trying to decide if the whole thing is real, and if he is what he says he is. I am still a little guarded, but trying to not be.
The first five mins were a little awkward. I got off the shuttle, and saw him. I thought, he doesn't look exactly like his picture, but he is still cute, and different. Then we hugged. It was good, but I was still trying to wrap my head around the idea that I was actually in Idaho, with Nate... (the guy I have come to know over the phone, and now I have to get used to him in person, is it still going to be the same? Am I what he wants and expects? Is this how it works? are all what I was thinking.)
We held hands as we drove, and Yes, we did kiss. It was just what I expected. (If you want more details you have to call...my mom reads this too.)
We are going to dinner tonight with my dad, and i hope that my dad behaves... I don't want to hear anything close to "What are your intentions with my daughter?" escape my dad's lips... yes, Nate and I have talked about it, but not in detail, and I still don't have a ring, so we are not there yet. I just hope to get my dad's opinion of Nate, and Nate's of my dad. I still feel good about the whole thing, and I am excited to see where it goes. I will keep you posted on how Thanksgiving with his family goes. (That is a whole new set of nerves, and indecision about what to wear...) I am happy to be here, and to see what happens.
I made it to Idaho!! I am here with Nate, and I haven't been raped, he is not weird, or even creepy. I am still trying to decide if the whole thing is real, and if he is what he says he is. I am still a little guarded, but trying to not be.
The first five mins were a little awkward. I got off the shuttle, and saw him. I thought, he doesn't look exactly like his picture, but he is still cute, and different. Then we hugged. It was good, but I was still trying to wrap my head around the idea that I was actually in Idaho, with Nate... (the guy I have come to know over the phone, and now I have to get used to him in person, is it still going to be the same? Am I what he wants and expects? Is this how it works? are all what I was thinking.)
We held hands as we drove, and Yes, we did kiss. It was just what I expected. (If you want more details you have to call...my mom reads this too.)
We are going to dinner tonight with my dad, and i hope that my dad behaves... I don't want to hear anything close to "What are your intentions with my daughter?" escape my dad's lips... yes, Nate and I have talked about it, but not in detail, and I still don't have a ring, so we are not there yet. I just hope to get my dad's opinion of Nate, and Nate's of my dad. I still feel good about the whole thing, and I am excited to see where it goes. I will keep you posted on how Thanksgiving with his family goes. (That is a whole new set of nerves, and indecision about what to wear...) I am happy to be here, and to see what happens.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Note to self.
Self,
When updating your blogg, look at others bloggs first, and see what you want to do, THEN post your new fun blogg, with all the other's ideas....Must be better at this.
Also, remind me later to ask others to start posting "one sentance" updates. (Jared's blogg)
I saw the coolest thing on Jared's blogg. one sentance updates.
ie: Mary chopped of her hair and still looks smokin' hot.
I thought it was fun and creating, and it gave me a snap shot of their week, without having to read a long blogg. Must remember these ideas for next blogg.
Love,
Me, Myself, and I
When updating your blogg, look at others bloggs first, and see what you want to do, THEN post your new fun blogg, with all the other's ideas....Must be better at this.
Also, remind me later to ask others to start posting "one sentance" updates. (Jared's blogg)
I saw the coolest thing on Jared's blogg. one sentance updates.
ie: Mary chopped of her hair and still looks smokin' hot.
I thought it was fun and creating, and it gave me a snap shot of their week, without having to read a long blogg. Must remember these ideas for next blogg.
Love,
Me, Myself, and I
15 Days to go...but who's counting?
So, there are only 15 days untill I meet Nate. I am very EXCITED to say the least. I am glad that my parents are supportive, yet not overly protective. I am glad that they are willing to let me decide and they hope for the best, and want me to be happy. (I am truly happy by the way... :)
I am happy. Nate is still nice, and kind, and funny. I am just a little nervous about if it will be the same in person, as it is over the phone. I have starded a count down on the fridge, and as soon as I am home from Thanksgiving, I plan to cound down to Christmas! So, for those of you keeping track, I will let you know how Thanksgiving goes, I will keep my eyes open (for any red flags), and be the best me, I can be.
I have a few decisions to make. I am concidering moving, but given the economy I am not moving without a job. I am also just trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up...(the ever persent question.) So please remember me in your prayers, because you are always in mine.
My jobs are getting better. I am still frustrated about a few things, but I finally found the right person to talk to about it. So, I am going to write an e-mail tonight, and see what happens. OG is getting better, but it is slow, and the money is not so good. I am also trying to be better at teaching, and trying to survive lunch duty every day. As life goes on all I think about is
Just 15 more days to go....15 more days to go.....15 more days to go....
I am happy. Nate is still nice, and kind, and funny. I am just a little nervous about if it will be the same in person, as it is over the phone. I have starded a count down on the fridge, and as soon as I am home from Thanksgiving, I plan to cound down to Christmas! So, for those of you keeping track, I will let you know how Thanksgiving goes, I will keep my eyes open (for any red flags), and be the best me, I can be.
I have a few decisions to make. I am concidering moving, but given the economy I am not moving without a job. I am also just trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up...(the ever persent question.) So please remember me in your prayers, because you are always in mine.
My jobs are getting better. I am still frustrated about a few things, but I finally found the right person to talk to about it. So, I am going to write an e-mail tonight, and see what happens. OG is getting better, but it is slow, and the money is not so good. I am also trying to be better at teaching, and trying to survive lunch duty every day. As life goes on all I think about is
Just 15 more days to go....15 more days to go.....15 more days to go....
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Love
The Quote of the day form Einstin today was one that I looked at for a year in college.
"Gravitation can not be heald responsiable for tow people falling in love."
How true that is!! The forces of gravity are not that strong, or that weak. I feel that love is a verb, a choice, and something that must be desired... So, think about that the next time you tell someone that you love them.
Oh, and I LOVE you all!!!
"Gravitation can not be heald responsiable for tow people falling in love."
How true that is!! The forces of gravity are not that strong, or that weak. I feel that love is a verb, a choice, and something that must be desired... So, think about that the next time you tell someone that you love them.
Oh, and I LOVE you all!!!
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