NO!! I am not getting married... But, as i think about all my friends that are happily married, I can't help but think of the things that i want to change about my self, and the things that i want in a husband. Now, to those of you that really know me, i am probably set in my ways to ever get married, but as i had a conversation with a girl i know here, i decided that things have to change!! As i drove to and from a fireside last week this girl (who is not little miss socal butterfly) decided to drill me on what exactly it is that i want in a husband, and how i think it will happen for me, and on and on...It was interesting to say the least! So, she asked me if i felt inspired to change things, I told her, "Yes, but not in the way that you think." I said. "I don't think or expect to change who i am to please anyone, but i do feel that there are things that i could be dong to help me a long."
I am not talking about anything drastic. I have been thinking lately about the things that i want for my future family. Little things like scripture study and daily prayers, to name a few. I have decided also that my prayers need to change... So that i am not praying that he (the "one") will find me but that i will be in the right place at the right time, and be doing the things that will help me to attract the right kind of people. I don't know why it took a move to Texas to change my perspective, but please keep praying for me to do those things that i need to to be the kind of wife and mother that i long to be, and that all of you, have shown me how to be.
Thank you to all of you that are better wives and mothers than i think i ever will be!! I am grateful for your sleepless nights with babies. Your tears shed wondering if he really likes you for you and the time spent preparing to go to the temple. SO... keep being my cheerleader and i will never stop being yours!! I hope that this helps us all remember why you fell in love, and that it is very simple to keep loving.
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Just so you know I am praying for you as well. I sure hope everything is going well in Texas. miss you!
Katie
Hey, I just happened to have a little time to check out everyone's blogs and stopped by to see what yours said and you made me cry. I love you and I hope you know that you ARE going in the right direction. I know you're struggling with what to do and how but you just have to keep putting yourself in the right situations. That said, I have also been reflecting on 12 years of marriage and I really can't help you out. Every man is different, every married couple has their little bag of trials and you will have yours. I pray for you and hope that you are happy (like "look at the beautiful stars" happy) Shoot off a note to me when you get a chance.
I was just spying on Kaye Lynn's blog on saw that you have an interview to be a teacher's aide. Good luck!! That would be awesome! What school are you interviewing at?
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